Is it stupid for me to say sorry on how - not - girlish - i - am ? Okay , I'm sorry i wasn't born perfect . I wasn't born to have a D cup boobs and curves and the ass that guys dreamed off . I'm sorry that i am a fucking flat chested lass . I'm sorry that I don't wear high heels and dresses . Sorry for not wearing makeup and buckloads of foundation just to have the illusion of flawless skins . I am so sorry cause I love converse than 4 inch hell ,  hoodies than dresses , musical instruments instead of makeups , acting violent instead of ladylike , loving the color of white instead of pink .

This is just a fucking stereotypes , you know? Does a girl needs to have the body that you seen in most magazine ? I mean , we came from different kind of genes , fat , skinny , black , caucasian , and all. Some who's physical is good and some not . And you expect us to have a freaking big boobs just to be a "girl" ?

Sure , i was born in a family with 3 brothers . They taught me how to fight just to defend myself . They toughen me up just before I could face the real world. I grew up playing racing cars , pokemon and consoles games instead of barbies and polly pockets stuff . But that doesn't mean i'm not dissing the people who plays with barbies . I just have my own liking . I like guitars , indie bands , converse and baggy clothes and adventurous stuff . Does it mean i have lost my feminine side? No.

I still love cooking for my family. I can go on shopping for hours . I like the color of coral pink . My bedroom is purple .  Most of my shoes have ribbons on it . I wear bracelets . I love baju kurungs . I love pearls and diamonds . I still love going to girls day out with my friends . I still spazz about boys . 

But somehow , it doesnt seem to matter to certain people . They still don't consider me as girl just cause i don't have a body to die for and an attitude that always flirt with guys . Just cause of that huh? Because fuck girls with other personality yea? . 

I wasn't born to be perfect .