one of my biggest nightmare came to life today.

i had always this feeling something like, an indication telling me that he had someone else...other than me.I've always brushed him off telling me he's not that type of guy..that would just leave...i mean he can even barely talk to girls, how could he do that? right?

i was wrong
i was deeply wrong.

just when i thought i could have an actually /healthy/ working relationship with him, he proved me wrong. I found out today when we were still together, he went out with that girl. He used to have no prblem showing his phone to me but lately he hasn't been showing to mine. I knew something was off...but I was too scared to question him.....I don't want to...push him away by asking for too much

but I feel like I should've asked, even though its too much.

At least, I don't have to feel like a fool right now. I wouldn't ask myself again and again, what the hell did I do wrong? Was I never enough? Was I ....a nuisance? should I've just...leave for him to be happy with that girl?

,,,,so many question in my head

and I could not even have the answer.