Dear Gillan,

I think this month alone I have already consumed more starbucks than the past years I have avoided it. My current favourite are Vanilla Sweet Cream Cold Brew. I blame it on watching too much emma chamberlain's video. Shit's actually taste ok-ok to me. But idk why I keep drinking it. 

I just drank one so you bet ur damn ass my body is shaking wanting to do some thing with this rampant amount of energy. I'm listening to Your Pain is Mine by Title Fight and speed typing anything in my brain. Let's talk about something.

About what? my new breakup? maybe. 

You see, some times I like to convince myself that I am doing fine but then comes the time where I stumble upon a sad fanfiction or going through google photos - I feel a buckload of sadness. I would be lying if I say I didn't tear up. 

Tomorrow I'm going to the city to meet tini and lisa but my mom thinks I'm meeting with peppermint haha..I wish he wants to meet me too. 

It's christmas tomorrow. 

:) 

heavily induced in coffee,

wafaa.