DEAR GILLAN,

In contrast of my previous post where I sound way too motivated to start my shit together - in this one I wanted nothing but to kill myself. Karma has come for me and it is overwhelming me. All those times I quit job in 24 hours? It's coming back to me!!! I have debt with people and I can't seem to get a job to pay them back. Now I am a mess. I still think about haziq and then I get sad because we never get to talk it out.

I just want to not exist please.

It's so hard, gillan.