I got into two job interviews, but I don't think I'll get shortlisted. A tiny part of me is actually relieved... my indecisiveness is really my downfall. One of the job that I went actually started their business during the first MCO, almost the same time I started wafaabuat.. and it kinda made me think, maybe wafaabuat could be far if I actually put my ass to work,

i could develop it to be better but the situation at home isn't helping. hm. My mom and I planned to clear up dad's study room so if I could clear the space there, I want to set up for packing station if I actually want to continue with wafaabuat. I think I would like to get at least one baked goods listen on shopee. I just really need a new mixer lol.

Can I really work with people again.... or should I just work by myself.. you know sometimes I think, I don't like taking so much responsibility unless its for my own? does that makes sense? and it's a pretty shitty trait too lol. WHY CAN'T I BE A FOOD SERVICE WORKER AND LIVE DECENTLY IN THIS FUCKING COUNTRY DAMNNNN THIS PIECE OF SHIT ASS COUNTRY IS SO CORRUPTED LIKE THE ROT IS SO DEEP?? SO DEEP PROBABLY WILL TAKE 3 GENERATIONS TO FIX IT??? SO WHY BOTHER??? WHY BOTHER??? 

ok anyway... ukraine and russia is having a war.. what is up with the world nowadays bro? nothing justifies killing civilians.. reading shits like this made me grateful that I live comfortably but at the same time, it kinda made me sad that will we ever progress to become a better humanity or are we just....horrible species...if we are..can I just...not live lol.

why am I babbling so much. this is what happen when writing is your coping mechanism..